Friday, January 25, 2013
The 5th Wheel
The above photo was taken 4 years ago just after the twins were born and during a time when I was too tired to make a decision about who would wear what and so I dressed them in the matchy-matchy clothes that were given to us when they were born.
If you asked me then whether I would want to have any more children I probably would have mumbled something about long walks and short piers or the distance to the nearest cliff. All a joke of course because the truth of the matter was that we had never ruled the possibility out, it just wasn't going to happen in the next year or two and definitely not while we were living in Sydney but we would leave the option open for the future. In fact, it took four years for me to be ready for another baby after the intensity of having 4 kids within 48 months.
Despite this, there were a few moments during the pregnancy when I wondered whether I had in fact made the right decision to bring another soul into the world. It wasn't the capacity to love another that was the issue. Not at all. I wasn't even worried about how the other kids would cope or how our marriage would be affected. I knew all that would be fine. I was concerned that the new baby would be left out because of the largish age gap between it and the others who have now formed this exceptionally tight bond. The new baby would be like The 5th Wheel. A loner, not part of the gang.
After 8 weeks of having The Fifth Wheel as part of the family I'm not so worried anymore. In fact I think Mr Flynn is going to be just a little bit spoilt.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!